{its been such a long time...}
sigh..
its been quitr a while since i last blogged..
hmm..this time i'm gonna blog bout him,...
sometimes i wonder if i'm thinking too much.. sometimes our eyes meet and i tot i saw him looking at my direction.. sometimes when he was close beside me i tot he wanted to talk to me.. sometimes i just saw him when i started to talk bout him.. sometimes he comes over to my side of the studio and sit directly in my line of sight..sometimes he pretends not to see me..
maybe he was looking at someone else in my line of sight.. and i happen to look at him.. maybe he wanted to be close to another person and i mistook it..maybe he just wanted to comeover our side cos his buddies are here.. and his buddy sits in my line of sight.. maybe he dislikes me tt's why he pretends not to see me..
i dunno.. i know i'm fat,ugly,emotional..crybaby,i know he's nice,sporty and good looking.we're world's apart.. he'll probably prefer someone prettier..i type until here i feel a little heart break.. i just feel so disheartened now..
maybe he discovered tt i like him.. tt's why he dun look at him, dun talk to me anymore.. sigh.. the history repeats itself.i just happened to always spoil a good frendship.. my fear for men has not lightened since that incident.. everytime i pass by them i just feel tt they are mocking at me.. like last time..how the guys tease me,how one guy betrayed me.. if so.. i rather he dunno ..i rather we stay as the kind of relationship whereby he comes over to console me when i'm down.. if so i would rather stop thinking bout him ..
yup.. i'll do tt.. i'll stop likeing him.. from now on.
ps. wo bu hui gao pan...
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