Monday, August 28, 2006; 9:57 AM
{i'm a lady boss!!}
hehe.. sorry for no recent update..
haha
cos i'm busy with my opening online store!!1
selling diy jewellery and accessories..hehe..
i hope it can be a success!!!
hehe.. i ofund ping to be my partner and wend to be my web designer... i really thank them cos i wont be paying them but they still support me =) thanx guys=)
hope it can launch on the 1st week of sept..
jia you jia you jia you..
=)
*i miss him..
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Tuesday, August 22, 2006; 12:11 AM
{i've made up my mind..}
i've made up my mind to do somethings b4 and after school reopens..
b4 school reopens:
1. lose weight
2.make my face acne and scar free
3.be healthy=)
4.set up my own d.i.y shop online..
after school reopen:
1.move away from my table
2.move away from my cubicle
3.move away to ivon's table
4.move away from them.
haha..
sorry jackie.. i just cant stand it anymore.. i cant bear the disappintment anymore.. i cant be taken for granted anymore.. i just cant..
if u wan u can move out with me.. but i know u wont..=) u're peace=)
i'll cherish my frens more. i'll cherish wend,ping,ling,manda,hann,xuelin,xiaoran,jackie,deon they all more..i'll cherish evryone more.. everyone but them.
dun worry.. jackie;s present is ready!!!
*i'll be happy if he can be in my list=)
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Sunday, August 20, 2006; 6:49 PM
{finally!!!yes i went out with my besties!}
finally.. yesterday i went out with manda,ping, and lin!!
i very long never shopped so naturally le..very very long..i went down to bugis after my work and met up with them..
we shopped shopped and went up to the bugis cafe which we visited b4 on the second day they open.. it's now packed with people.. but though we all agreed tt the food they serve wasnt tt nice..hehe
i feel really happy..
but not exactly cos someone was missing.. wend!!!
hope all of us can come out next week=)
u're are the best.. i swear!!!=)muacks!!
btw.. i quitted my job at crayola..=(
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Friday, August 18, 2006; 8:39 PM
{sigh.. i feel betrayed..}
today i cried again..
cried because i feel betrayed.. cried because my bestest fren in poly din understand me at all.. cried because finally, my buddy is on the same side with the other 2 today..fine then..
pls tell me if i'm rite or wrong can??
here goes:
there's a classmate who's pregnant in class, or we;re not sure whether she's pregnant or not..so the 2 ask me" do i know whether she's pregnant or not" i said i dunno and ask them not to bother bout other ppl stuff.. cos if really the girl passes by and hears.. it wouldnt be nice.. wat if this wasnt the truth and others heard it??wouldnt this become something even more hard for her to tahan??so i decided not to say it..
but on one occassion i accidentally blurted out my buddy.. and after her crit the 2 ask her whether she knew.. and she told them!!! and so one of them call out" yichunyichun!! come come, she's pregnant rite??' i was shocked.. so i ask who told them..they say it was her.. i was diosapppointed.. she shud know wat can be told and wat cannot.. i gave aher a face tt i never showed anyone b4.. in studio.. the angry and i diao her.. i didnt mean to.. but i was too angry to say anything.. i didnt care so i heard things like"she didnt say i cant tell wat.."
oh come on.. we've been frens for 3 yrs le!!! she dun even know wat i''m thinking.. i dunno i feel like an idiot.. i helped her throughtout her whole submission.. i helped her!!! even though she neglected me as a whole... yet in the end she was on the same side with the 2... saddening.. so i cried..
then he came over.. the guy, my crush..gosh... everythime he see me i'm crying.. 2 crits and one prob..i feel so embarrassed.. but he actually sat down to hear me talk.. but i guess he was just showing his concern.. i bet anyone will..=)but i 'm such a cry baby!! evrytime he pats me on my shoulder telling me tt it'll be fine.. i appreciate tt.. i feel tt god is taking care of me.. cos i'm so ordinary.. or even ugly.. but this nice guy here happens to always be there to listen for a while of my prob and console me..thank u=)
am i a fren to him alredy?? cos when i said thanks today he actually punched his chest..and said"aiya..".. haha.. i feel i'm flying lo..haha
jackie if u happen to see this i'm sure u know who i;m talking bout le.. but pai tuo u dun say out ah..thanx=)hehe...
and thanx alot alot to jackie too.. for being neutral and accompanying me on my way back.. i felt alot better after talking to him.. in fact i threw my temper at him... but i got apologise to him la=)
thanx again buddy!!!1
ping,wend.. tell me if i'm wrong tell me.. i really seriously think i'm not wrong.. though the pregnant gal may not be my closest fren.. but i feel tt i cant betray her..cos i'm sure she's facing alot of pressure alredy cos she;s hiding her tummy.. or trying to..so if she;s hiding means she dun wan people to know bout this thing.. shudnt we just give her a little space and STOP TAKLING BEHIND HER!!!!
my buddy.. if u happen to see this.. hope u can understand how i feel this afternoon.. and not think tt i'm just unreasonable..if u read this and still think tt u're right.. then it;s fine with me...
u may not even read this at all..
end of speech=)
* he made my day!!!haha
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Thursday, August 17, 2006; 8:18 PM
{what a bad day..}
i'm gonna be vulgar in this post.. pardon me..
fuck him for him comments..
so wat if i dun consult u?? u treat me as transparent, ignore me , borught me so much stress.. yet u're condemning me because i din consult u??
evryone knows i've been doing my work.. and putting my effort.. but u fucking dun veen talk to me when u saw my plan 1month b4 submission
fuck u cos u dun trust ur other team mates..
fuck cos u made all other lecturers leaving soon...
u say u wanna made me stay back to yr 1..made me cry like hell..
u said all tt.. all because i never consult u!!!!
the other lecturers all say they like my project.. fuck u cos u dun appreciate..
u hate me..
i know..
FUCK OFF!!!
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Tuesday, August 15, 2006; 8:38 PM
{i finally finish my project!!!!!}
finally..
i finished my projects after 5 nights of hard work..but i din meet my submission requirement.. sigh.. this is actually sad.. cos i wanted it to be my best project so so much...and i'm really confident in my 2a.. sigh.. but i think the onlt thing i'm really satisfied is my model=) haha.. i shall upload the pics of my model tml!!! hahah...
i guess i'm really too tired le..i need a good good resyt..
ok.. i think i'm reallly down onmy luck this month... i've fell down like 3 -4 times alredy ..
first time i fall down while coming down form the bus 913.. guess wat.. i fell down and knell in fornt of the people queueing up for another bus... ...sigh..
second time i fell down at home . i slipped on my paper pieces then kicked my computer chair away!!my god..
third time i fell down at the carpark in basement 1 at causeway point,,wth...
and yesterday when i submit my work, the leh*** dun give a damn bout the model i'm proud with..really feel like slapping him.. i dun care le..
and i really dun like the way he coordinates the whole courzse.. even the crit shedule is like shit lo.. the time slot din even change.. and the time is esatimated wrongly.. how come they think we only need 20 min to talk bout 2 projects?? when usually we take bout 25 for one?? sigh.. speechless...make me from tues wait till thurs..
and after my 2 male lecturers leave, my other 2 part -time is gonna leave.. and my dear dear sab in yr 2 is leaving too... i feel so sad.. why is there nothing we can do to stop that person from being so despicable.. sigh..
there's only 5months left.. i shall do my best..
anyway.. after so long i saw him again=) i cant help best to look at his direction.. i just cant help.. his crit is after mine=).. i feel so happy!! i'm gonna slim down.. really trying hard=)hmmm.. i wonder what he think of me??maybe i 'm not even a fren ba..
tml i'm going jogging again!!!1 haha.. hope i can tahan like this !! gambateh!!!
* i yearn to have someone to care for me.. to love me.. to sayang me..when will he come??
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Thursday, August 10, 2006; 1:17 AM
{i'm gonna blow up..}
some people just sux..
1.leh**** -this person who forced 2 of our lecturers to go tml.. and not paying them to come back for our crit.. damn..2.people who bully my cousin- this 2 girls deserve some slaps across their cheeks. pls f*** off..sorry.. i;m vulgur and this is unlikely of me.. but i really cannot tahan alredy..
countdown 4 days to submission..but why like alot of things still haven do??
*anyway, i finished 6 rounds at the stadium today.. so this is the only happy thing..=)
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Saturday, August 05, 2006; 9:53 PM
{the 4 big things that happened recently..}
1. i've gained weight instead of losing it. haha..omg...
2.d and j.. they patched.. i'm happy tt they're happy once again=)
3.our lecturers are leaving.. because of the goldfish!!!!!!!!!!!!stupid goldfish..
4. i've just met up with wend,hann,ping and MANDA yesterday finaly!!!
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Thursday, August 03, 2006; 8:20 AM
{submission..}
my god.. submission is coming.. and i only have plans without specs for 2a.. and plans without doors and furnitures for 2b..hand drawn details for both.. model i onlyhave the materials..how am i going to submit like tt.. stressed up now..ahaha
anyway.. yesterday i chatted with wend on msn.. very long never chat with her le ne... haha.. al of us were busy u see..ok.. we agreed to jog every wed night!! yes!! good tt someone is peiing me to lose weight..i guess i'll be mre motivated ba!!haha..
ok.. once i lose weigt i wannaconfess..=p
but i scared will be like last time with cj like tt..really really scared..
haha ok
back to work!!!i'm gonna work very very hard..
14th of aug!!!
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Tuesday, August 01, 2006; 9:06 PM
{sigh...}
[07:42:46 PM] ~yichun~tell: yesterday i tan pai with meiyun
[07:42:52 PM] 0426345 love: den?
[07:42:53 PM] ~yichun~tell: said evrything out
[07:43:03 PM] ~yichun~tell: then she say she's very sory and all..
[07:43:12 PM] ~yichun~tell: but she din get my whole purpose
[07:43:15 PM] ~yichun~tell: sigh..
[07:43:33 PM] 0426345 love: y leh? she got say wad?
[07:44:37 PM] ~yichun~tell: she said when tt day she came to school she feel neglected cos i was talking to u during kunch
[07:44:43 PM] ~yichun~tell: so i replied..
[07:46:42 PM] ~yichun~tell: tat day when u come to school not i din wan to talk to u, just tt i got to much to talk bout i duno where to start.. cos during the last weeku din come to school i was very sad and down.. but when i send a sms to u u only replied 10 hrs after..and whne i call u u always never pick up the phone,eversince ur relationship with jiwu i feel tt studies and frens are not ur priorities anymore[07:46:47 PM] ~yichun~tell: long chunk
[07:46:49 PM] ~yichun~tell: still got
[07:47:09 PM] ~yichun~tell: then i say i dun wan her to fail...
[07:47:17 PM] ~yichun~tell: then..
[07:48:44 PM] ~yichun~tell: i say" these 3 yrs i've given u enough le, for the last term i've been giving u morning calls but maybe its become too used for u to listen so u dun care anymore..my encouragememnts are always not comparable to jiwu's or bensons , therefor ei need to leave u on ur own, cos i cant help u forever
[07:50:05 PM] ~yichun~tell: when u re always leaving early to meet ur frens, i feel abandoned beause u always make me wait for at least half an hour.. and though i du mind waiting for others i mind being taken for granted.. i'm tired.
[07:50:08 PM] ~yichun~tell: tt's all
[07:50:09 PM] ~yichun~tell: haha
[07:50:12 PM] ~yichun~tell: long rite?
[07:51:00 PM] 0426345 love: wait ah
[07:51:46 PM] 0426345 love: ya quite long... say out le at leaste let her noe
[07:53:09 PM] ~yichun~tell: then she replied,"i know u 're always worry and care for me. u r trying to give help to me but i didnt appreciate it. usaid it rit, i neglected u and didnt do my part as a fen,so sorry, u have ur freedo to do anyhtintg u wan and i deserve the treatment,i dint cherish it, it 's all my problem, my attidtude to wards stuidies, now i can only depend on myself,i'm disappointed in myself too.no matter wad u're still my best buddy"[07:54:34 PM] 0426345 love: den good lo... now u can concentrate more on your studies[07:54:54 PM] 0426345 love: if u dun start being selfish now den u r the one losing in the end
[07:55:11 PM] ~yichun~tell: actually i said all those to make her come to school..[07:55:27 PM] ~yichun~tell: but int he end she chose to give up
[07:55:30 PM] ~yichun~tell: sigh
[07:55:36 PM] ~yichun~tell: so i guess i can help anymre
[07:55:43 PM] ~yichun~tell: yup
[07:55:50 PM] 0426345 love: she gave up!!?
[07:55:53 PM] ~yichun~tell: so i'm gonna stay at home and do my work tml
[07:55:54 PM] ~yichun~tell: hahaha
[07:57:00 PM] 0426345 love: yeah
[07:57:11 PM] 0426345 love: she gave up means she dun wan submit?
[07:57:52 PM] ~yichun~tell: i dunno neh.. i told he to come to school today for the last time..
[07:57:56 PM] ~yichun~tell: but she din turn up
[07:58:00 PM] ~yichun~tell: so..
[07:58:13 PM] ~yichun~tell: i guess 1.she wan to avoid me
[07:58:20 PM] ~yichun~tell: 2.she wanna work at home
[07:58:25 PM] ~yichun~tell: 3. she cant wake up
[07:58:29 PM] ~yichun~tell: haha
[07:59:23 PM] 0426345 love: most likely is 3
[07:59:25 PM] 0426345 love: hee
[07:59:30 PM] ~yichun~tell: haha
[07:59:32 PM] ~yichun~tell: i guess too
[07:59:34 PM] ~yichun~tell: haha
[08:00:09 PM] ~yichun~tell: today fred just asked me bout t2a stuff
[08:00:14 PM] ~yichun~tell: haha
the above conversation shows who cares and who dun..
shows i'm tired and wanna rest..
shows i need to work hard on my project le
tell me, if i'm a fren that is worth to hang out with, if yes, then cherish me pls,we'll be frens 4va..
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Praise You In This Storm - Casting Crowns
I was sure by now God you would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
that it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear your whisper through the rain,
I'm with you
and as your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.
Chorus:
And i'll praise you in this storm
and i will lift my hands
that you are who you are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
you hold in your hand
you never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise you in this storm
I remember when I stumbled in the wind
you heard my cry you raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find you
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear you whisper through the rain
I'm with you
and as your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away
Chorus
I lift my eyes unto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes unto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
Chorus