{sigh.. i feel betrayed..}
today i cried again..
cried because i feel betrayed.. cried because my bestest fren in poly din understand me at all.. cried because finally, my buddy is on the same side with the other 2 today..fine then..
pls tell me if i'm rite or wrong can??
here goes:
there's a classmate who's pregnant in class, or we;re not sure whether she's pregnant or not..so the 2 ask me" do i know whether she's pregnant or not" i said i dunno and ask them not to bother bout other ppl stuff.. cos if really the girl passes by and hears.. it wouldnt be nice.. wat if this wasnt the truth and others heard it??wouldnt this become something even more hard for her to tahan??so i decided not to say it..
but on one occassion i accidentally blurted out my buddy.. and after her crit the 2 ask her whether she knew.. and she told them!!! and so one of them call out" yichunyichun!! come come, she's pregnant rite??' i was shocked.. so i ask who told them..they say it was her.. i was diosapppointed.. she shud know wat can be told and wat cannot.. i gave aher a face tt i never showed anyone b4.. in studio.. the angry and i diao her.. i didnt mean to.. but i was too angry to say anything.. i didnt care so i heard things like"she didnt say i cant tell wat.."
oh come on.. we've been frens for 3 yrs le!!! she dun even know wat i''m thinking.. i dunno i feel like an idiot.. i helped her throughtout her whole submission.. i helped her!!! even though she neglected me as a whole... yet in the end she was on the same side with the 2... saddening.. so i cried..
then he came over.. the guy, my crush..gosh... everythime he see me i'm crying.. 2 crits and one prob..i feel so embarrassed.. but he actually sat down to hear me talk.. but i guess he was just showing his concern.. i bet anyone will..=)but i 'm such a cry baby!! evrytime he pats me on my shoulder telling me tt it'll be fine.. i appreciate tt.. i feel tt god is taking care of me.. cos i'm so ordinary.. or even ugly.. but this nice guy here happens to always be there to listen for a while of my prob and console me..thank u=)
am i a fren to him alredy?? cos when i said thanks today he actually punched his chest..and said"aiya..".. haha.. i feel i'm flying lo..haha
jackie if u happen to see this i'm sure u know who i;m talking bout le.. but pai tuo u dun say out ah..thanx=)hehe...
and thanx alot alot to jackie too.. for being neutral and accompanying me on my way back.. i felt alot better after talking to him.. in fact i threw my temper at him... but i got apologise to him la=)
thanx again buddy!!!1
ping,wend.. tell me if i'm wrong tell me.. i really seriously think i'm not wrong.. though the pregnant gal may not be my closest fren.. but i feel tt i cant betray her..cos i'm sure she's facing alot of pressure alredy cos she;s hiding her tummy.. or trying to..so if she;s hiding means she dun wan people to know bout this thing.. shudnt we just give her a little space and STOP TAKLING BEHIND HER!!!!
my buddy.. if u happen to see this.. hope u can understand how i feel this afternoon.. and not think tt i'm just unreasonable..if u read this and still think tt u're right.. then it;s fine with me...
u may not even read this at all..
end of speech=)
* he made my day!!!haha
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