i . am . lee . yi . chun

so much had happened/..

2006-11-02T21:12:00.000+08:00

guys.. finally here for some update!!

ok.. firstly.. my relatives form taiwan just came over last week..hmm.. i just started my submisision last week so i din accompay them.,. esp my grandmother.. i'm sorry k??

secondly.. my work.. i worked for a whole month of work.. finally the crit time.. haha.. i got shot down.. tt bastard.. i'll definitely prove it to him de..details.. i think i'll tell u guysd when i meet u all..

thirdly..him.. at first i tot everything was smooth,, real smooth.. until the day i saw him with another girl.. then i know.. it's all one sided.yup.. it's all one side thinking.. and actually i know.. deep down in my heart tt this is like the furthest we can go.. maybe chatting on the internet is the furthest.. when we meet i'm even too shy to talk to him..
and the girl who was with him was pretty enuff i guess.. or maybe he like her character..i feel happy for him. really..so now.. i'm gonna give him up. for the las ttime i say.

dear frens.. my heart is so down down down now..

its been such a long time...

2006-10-06T09:37:00.000+08:00

sigh..

its been quitr a while since i last blogged..

hmm..this time i'm gonna blog bout him,...

sometimes i wonder if i'm thinking too much.. sometimes our eyes meet and i tot i saw him looking at my direction.. sometimes when he was close beside me i tot he wanted to talk to me.. sometimes i just saw him when i started to talk bout him.. sometimes he comes over to my side of the studio and sit directly in my line of sight..sometimes he pretends not to see me..

maybe he was looking at someone else in my line of sight.. and i happen to look at him.. maybe he wanted to be close to another person and i mistook it..maybe he just wanted to comeover our side cos his buddies are here.. and his buddy sits in my line of sight.. maybe he dislikes me tt's why he pretends not to see me..

i dunno.. i know i'm fat,ugly,emotional..crybaby,i know he's nice,sporty and good looking.we're world's apart.. he'll probably prefer someone prettier..i type until here i feel a little heart break.. i just feel so disheartened now..

maybe he discovered tt i like him.. tt's why he dun look at him, dun talk to me anymore.. sigh.. the history repeats itself.i just happened to always spoil a good frendship.. my fear for men has not lightened since that incident.. everytime i pass by them i just feel tt they are mocking at me.. like last time..how the guys tease me,how one guy betrayed me.. if so.. i rather he dunno ..i rather we stay as the kind of relationship whereby he comes over to console me when i'm down.. if so i would rather stop thinking bout him ..

yup.. i'll do tt.. i'll stop likeing him.. from now on.

ps. wo bu hui gao pan...

new term,new beginning..is it??

2006-09-28T12:48:00.002+08:00

its the new term, new beginning.. new project.. new trouble new schedule,new gems..

but i'm still feeling ratherupset at some things..at sometimes..

my click is always not around.. leaving me alone. for instance, i just bought my lunch(packet of honeydews).. sigh.. pathetic..treat it as diet ba..

friends like xiao ran,meiyun,jackie.. they are always there.. how bout the others?? i just think tt maybe they treat me as fren when they need help ba..

ping,manda,wend,hann,lin.. they are my sec sch click.. but other than manda who's been asking me bout the chalet thingie, the others dun have time for me..sigh.. but i know they're always there too..

maybe i'm just destined to be like this.. i cant rely on my family, i cant rely on my frens now also..maybe i'll just have to be on my own..i have to learn..

i'm back!!

2006-09-19T12:01:00.000+08:00

hi all..
i'm back!!!
recently has been doing some diy.yes.. i'm opening my own online shop with ping!!

haha
ok.. this is some thing tt i've done..

a diy lacey bracelet

a earring

anchor pendant

a little angel..

a white version of bracelet

a charm for plain shirts

other than these, i designed a page for my online shop...=)

haha.. tt's all folks!!! hope it all goes smooth!!!missed all my friends! love ya!!!

*ps.. i miss him.

i'm a lady boss!!

2006-08-28T09:57:00.000+08:00

hehe.. sorry for no recent update..

haha

cos i'm busy with my opening online store!!1

selling diy jewellery and accessories..hehe..

i hope it can be a success!!!

hehe.. i ofund ping to be my partner and wend to be my web designer... i really thank them cos i wont be paying them but they still support me =) thanx guys=)

hope it can launch on the 1st week of sept..

jia you jia you jia you..

*i miss him..

i've made up my mind..

2006-08-22T00:11:00.000+08:00

i've made up my mind to do somethings b4 and after school reopens..

b4 school reopens:

1. lose weight

2.make my face acne and scar free

3.be healthy=)

4.set up my own d.i.y shop online..

after school reopen:

1.move away from my table

2.move away from my cubicle

3.move away to ivon's table

4.move away from them.

haha..

sorry jackie.. i just cant stand it anymore.. i cant bear the disappintment anymore.. i cant be taken for granted anymore.. i just cant..

if u wan u can move out with me.. but i know u wont..=) u're peace=)

i'll cherish my frens more. i'll cherish wend,ping,ling,manda,hann,xuelin,xiaoran,jackie,deon they all more..i'll cherish evryone more.. everyone but them.

dun worry.. jackie;s present is ready!!!

*i'll be happy if he can be in my list=)

finally!!!yes i went out with my besties!

2006-08-20T18:49:00.000+08:00

finally.. yesterday i went out with manda,ping, and lin!!

i very long never shopped so naturally le..very very long..i went down to bugis after my work and met up with them..
we shopped shopped and went up to the bugis cafe which we visited b4 on the second day they open.. it's now packed with people.. but though we all agreed tt the food they serve wasnt tt nice..hehe

i feel really happy..

but not exactly cos someone was missing.. wend!!!

hope all of us can come out next week=)

u're are the best.. i swear!!!=)muacks!!

btw.. i quitted my job at crayola..=(

sigh.. i feel betrayed..

2006-08-18T20:39:00.000+08:00

today i cried again..

cried because i feel betrayed.. cried because my bestest fren in poly din understand me at all.. cried because finally, my buddy is on the same side with the other 2 today..fine then..

pls tell me if i'm rite or wrong can??

here goes:

there's a classmate who's pregnant in class, or we;re not sure whether she's pregnant or not..so the 2 ask me" do i know whether she's pregnant or not" i said i dunno and ask them not to bother bout other ppl stuff.. cos if really the girl passes by and hears.. it wouldnt be nice.. wat if this wasnt the truth and others heard it??wouldnt this become something even more hard for her to tahan??so i decided not to say it..

but on one occassion i accidentally blurted out my buddy.. and after her crit the 2 ask her whether she knew.. and she told them!!! and so one of them call out" yichunyichun!! come come, she's pregnant rite??' i was shocked.. so i ask who told them..they say it was her.. i was diosapppointed.. she shud know wat can be told and wat cannot.. i gave aher a face tt i never showed anyone b4.. in studio.. the angry and i diao her.. i didnt mean to.. but i was too angry to say anything.. i didnt care so i heard things like"she didnt say i cant tell wat.."

oh come on.. we've been frens for 3 yrs le!!! she dun even know wat i''m thinking.. i dunno i feel like an idiot.. i helped her throughtout her whole submission.. i helped her!!! even though she neglected me as a whole... yet in the end she was on the same side with the 2... saddening.. so i cried..

then he came over.. the guy, my crush..gosh... everythime he see me i'm crying.. 2 crits and one prob..i feel so embarrassed.. but he actually sat down to hear me talk.. but i guess he was just showing his concern.. i bet anyone will..=)but i 'm such a cry baby!! evrytime he pats me on my shoulder telling me tt it'll be fine.. i appreciate tt.. i feel tt god is taking care of me.. cos i'm so ordinary.. or even ugly.. but this nice guy here happens to always be there to listen for a while of my prob and console me..thank u=)

am i a fren to him alredy?? cos when i said thanks today he actually punched his chest..and said"aiya..".. haha.. i feel i'm flying lo..haha

jackie if u happen to see this i'm sure u know who i;m talking bout le.. but pai tuo u dun say out ah..thanx=)hehe...

and thanx alot alot to jackie too.. for being neutral and accompanying me on my way back.. i felt alot better after talking to him.. in fact i threw my temper at him... but i got apologise to him la=)

thanx again buddy!!!1

ping,wend.. tell me if i'm wrong tell me.. i really seriously think i'm not wrong.. though the pregnant gal may not be my closest fren.. but i feel tt i cant betray her..cos i'm sure she's facing alot of pressure alredy cos she;s hiding her tummy.. or trying to..so if she;s hiding means she dun wan people to know bout this thing.. shudnt we just give her a little space and STOP TAKLING BEHIND HER!!!!

my buddy.. if u happen to see this.. hope u can understand how i feel this afternoon.. and not think tt i'm just unreasonable..if u read this and still think tt u're right.. then it;s fine with me...

u may not even read this at all..

end of speech=)

* he made my day!!!haha

what a bad day..

2006-08-17T20:18:00.000+08:00

i'm gonna be vulgar in this post.. pardon me..

fuck him for him comments..
so wat if i dun consult u?? u treat me as transparent, ignore me , borught me so much stress.. yet u're condemning me because i din consult u??

evryone knows i've been doing my work.. and putting my effort.. but u fucking dun veen talk to me when u saw my plan 1month b4 submission

fuck u cos u dun trust ur other team mates..

fuck cos u made all other lecturers leaving soon...

u say u wanna made me stay back to yr 1..made me cry like hell..

u said all tt.. all because i never consult u!!!!

the other lecturers all say they like my project.. fuck u cos u dun appreciate..

u hate me..

i know..

FUCK OFF!!!

i finally finish my project!!!!!

2006-08-15T20:38:00.000+08:00

finally..

i finished my projects after 5 nights of hard work..but i din meet my submission requirement.. sigh.. this is actually sad.. cos i wanted it to be my best project so so much...and i'm really confident in my 2a.. sigh.. but i think the onlt thing i'm really satisfied is my model=) haha.. i shall upload the pics of my model tml!!! hahah...

i guess i'm really too tired le..i need a good good resyt..

ok.. i think i'm reallly down onmy luck this month... i've fell down like 3 -4 times alredy ..

first time i fall down while coming down form the bus 913.. guess wat.. i fell down and knell in fornt of the people queueing up for another bus... ...sigh..

second time i fell down at home . i slipped on my paper pieces then kicked my computer chair away!!my god..

third time i fell down at the carpark in basement 1 at causeway point,,wth...

and yesterday when i submit my work, the leh*** dun give a damn bout the model i'm proud with..really feel like slapping him.. i dun care le..

and i really dun like the way he coordinates the whole courzse.. even the crit shedule is like shit lo.. the time slot din even change.. and the time is esatimated wrongly.. how come they think we only need 20 min to talk bout 2 projects?? when usually we take bout 25 for one?? sigh.. speechless...make me from tues wait till thurs..

and after my 2 male lecturers leave, my other 2 part -time is gonna leave.. and my dear dear sab in yr 2 is leaving too... i feel so sad.. why is there nothing we can do to stop that person from being so despicable.. sigh..

there's only 5months left.. i shall do my best..

anyway.. after so long i saw him again=) i cant help best to look at his direction.. i just cant help.. his crit is after mine=).. i feel so happy!! i'm gonna slim down.. really trying hard=)hmmm.. i wonder what he think of me??maybe i 'm not even a fren ba..

tml i'm going jogging again!!!1 haha.. hope i can tahan like this !! gambateh!!!

* i yearn to have someone to care for me.. to love me.. to sayang me..when will he come??

i'm gonna blow up..

2006-08-10T01:17:00.000+08:00

some people just sux..

1.leh**** -this person who forced 2 of our lecturers to go tml.. and not paying them to come back for our crit.. damn..

2.people who bully my cousin- this 2 girls deserve some slaps across their cheeks. pls f*** off..

sorry.. i;m vulgur and this is unlikely of me.. but i really cannot tahan alredy..

countdown 4 days to submission..but why like alot of things still haven do??

*anyway, i finished 6 rounds at the stadium today.. so this is the only happy thing..=)

the 4 big things that happened recently..

2006-08-05T21:53:00.000+08:00

1. i've gained weight instead of losing it. haha..omg...

2.d and j.. they patched.. i'm happy tt they're happy once again=)

3.our lecturers are leaving.. because of the goldfish!!!!!!!!!!!!stupid goldfish..

4. i've just met up with wend,hann,ping and MANDA yesterday finaly!!!

submission..

2006-08-03T08:20:00.000+08:00

my god.. submission is coming.. and i only have plans without specs for 2a.. and plans without doors and furnitures for 2b..hand drawn details for both.. model i onlyhave the materials..how am i going to submit like tt.. stressed up now..ahaha

anyway.. yesterday i chatted with wend on msn.. very long never chat with her le ne... haha.. al of us were busy u see..ok.. we agreed to jog every wed night!! yes!! good tt someone is peiing me to lose weight..i guess i'll be mre motivated ba!!haha..

ok.. once i lose weigt i wannaconfess..=p

but i scared will be like last time with cj like tt..really really scared..

haha ok

back to work!!!i'm gonna work very very hard..
14th of aug!!!

sigh...

2006-08-01T21:06:00.000+08:00

[07:42:46 PM] ~yichun~tell: yesterday i tan pai with meiyun
[07:42:52 PM] 0426345 love: den?
[07:42:53 PM] ~yichun~tell: said evrything out
[07:43:03 PM] ~yichun~tell: then she say she's very sory and all..
[07:43:12 PM] ~yichun~tell: but she din get my whole purpose
[07:43:15 PM] ~yichun~tell: sigh..
[07:43:33 PM] 0426345 love: y leh? she got say wad?
[07:44:37 PM] ~yichun~tell: she said when tt day she came to school she feel neglected cos i was talking to u during kunch
[07:44:43 PM] ~yichun~tell: so i replied..
[07:46:42 PM] ~yichun~tell: tat day when u come to school not i din wan to talk to u, just tt i got to much to talk bout i duno where to start.. cos during the last weeku din come to school i was very sad and down.. but when i send a sms to u u only replied 10 hrs after..and whne i call u u always never pick up the phone,eversince ur relationship with jiwu i feel tt studies and frens are not ur priorities anymore[07:46:47 PM] ~yichun~tell: long chunk
[07:46:49 PM] ~yichun~tell: still got
[07:47:09 PM] ~yichun~tell: then i say i dun wan her to fail...
[07:47:17 PM] ~yichun~tell: then..
[07:48:44 PM] ~yichun~tell: i say" these 3 yrs i've given u enough le, for the last term i've been giving u morning calls but maybe its become too used for u to listen so u dun care anymore..my encouragememnts are always not comparable to jiwu's or bensons , therefor ei need to leave u on ur own, cos i cant help u forever
[07:50:05 PM] ~yichun~tell: when u re always leaving early to meet ur frens, i feel abandoned beause u always make me wait for at least half an hour.. and though i du mind waiting for others i mind being taken for granted.. i'm tired.
[07:50:08 PM] ~yichun~tell: tt's all
[07:50:09 PM] ~yichun~tell: haha
[07:50:12 PM] ~yichun~tell: long rite?
[07:51:00 PM] 0426345 love: wait ah
[07:51:46 PM] 0426345 love: ya quite long... say out le at leaste let her noe
[07:53:09 PM] ~yichun~tell: then she replied,"i know u 're always worry and care for me. u r trying to give help to me but i didnt appreciate it. usaid it rit, i neglected u and didnt do my part as a fen,so sorry, u have ur freedo to do anyhtintg u wan and i deserve the treatment,i dint cherish it, it 's all my problem, my attidtude to wards stuidies, now i can only depend on myself,i'm disappointed in myself too.no matter wad u're still my best buddy"[07:54:34 PM] 0426345 love: den good lo... now u can concentrate more on your studies[07:54:54 PM] 0426345 love: if u dun start being selfish now den u r the one losing in the end
[07:55:11 PM] ~yichun~tell: actually i said all those to make her come to school..[07:55:27 PM] ~yichun~tell: but int he end she chose to give up
[07:55:30 PM] ~yichun~tell: sigh
[07:55:36 PM] ~yichun~tell: so i guess i can help anymre
[07:55:43 PM] ~yichun~tell: yup
[07:55:50 PM] 0426345 love: she gave up!!?
[07:55:53 PM] ~yichun~tell: so i'm gonna stay at home and do my work tml
[07:55:54 PM] ~yichun~tell: hahaha
[07:57:00 PM] 0426345 love: yeah
[07:57:11 PM] 0426345 love: she gave up means she dun wan submit?
[07:57:52 PM] ~yichun~tell: i dunno neh.. i told he to come to school today for the last time..
[07:57:56 PM] ~yichun~tell: but she din turn up
[07:58:00 PM] ~yichun~tell: so..
[07:58:13 PM] ~yichun~tell: i guess 1.she wan to avoid me
[07:58:20 PM] ~yichun~tell: 2.she wanna work at home
[07:58:25 PM] ~yichun~tell: 3. she cant wake up
[07:58:29 PM] ~yichun~tell: haha
[07:59:23 PM] 0426345 love: most likely is 3
[07:59:25 PM] 0426345 love: hee
[07:59:30 PM] ~yichun~tell: haha
[07:59:32 PM] ~yichun~tell: i guess too
[07:59:34 PM] ~yichun~tell: haha
[08:00:09 PM] ~yichun~tell: today fred just asked me bout t2a stuff
[08:00:14 PM] ~yichun~tell: haha

the above conversation shows who cares and who dun..
shows i'm tired and wanna rest..
shows i need to work hard on my project le

tell me, if i'm a fren that is worth to hang out with, if yes, then cherish me pls,we'll be frens 4va..

scary...

2006-07-29T21:42:00.000+08:00

i got a shock last night/.. i feel myself being a pillow to something.. something i dint know..

maybe too streess ba.. haha

well actually i'm too tired to blog le..maybe update more tml or mon ba=)

byebye

sorry for this short post..

i all alone again..

2006-07-27T08:57:00.000+08:00

dear frens.. if u happened to see this post can tag?? cos i'm feeling really lonely now.. i guess they not coming again.. sigh.. i'm really sad..

i guess i'm the kind who'll always need someone by my side.. except when iam at work.. but work because i have kids with me ma.. so they pei me chat chat also.. haha..

i guess this is me ba.. i'm born in this family where i'm the eldest daughter and the eldest sister.. so parents are exceptionally strict with mem and my sibling rely on me .. tt's the most tiring thing.. i couldnt depend on anyone aty home.. cos my parent dun undersdtand wat i'm doing.. even my mum dunno.. dun mention my dad..my siblings?? they are just kids.. who think tt i know everythingand have all the time int he world to listen to them.. but the prob is.. i'm not wat they think i'm/..

my sis say i'm childish and like to act cute..sigh. u think i want?? i need to gie siao to getaway.. i cry because i'm mature enuff to think tt throwing things and shoutng at everyone is not the solution to the prob.. i just plainly think tt crying is the way to vent my frustration and fear.. and minimise hurt to the lowest,,

sigh..

无奈.无助.无能.

2006-07-24T22:02:00.001+08:00

无奈.无助.无能.this are the feelings i have now..

i tried to borrow laptop from people.. but it seems like nobody will ever lend another a laptop.. sigh..

the comp keep hanging.. and its damned slow.. and it DAMN slow..sigh.. i'm alredy slow enuff u know..

i am sad.. really sad.. i scared i cant finish on time.. i dun wanna fail and retain.. i dun wanna waste my parent's money..really..

nobody can describe my feeling now.. really..i know some people are worse than me.. so i 'll hang on.. i wont complain again.. this is the last time..

alrite backk to work..=)

无奈.无助.无能.

2006-07-24T22:02:00.000+08:00

无奈.无助.无能.this are the feelings i have now..

i tried to borrow laptop from people.. but it seems like nobody will ever lend another a laptop.. sigh..

the comp keep hanging.. and its damned slow.. and it DAMN slow..sigh.. i'm alredy slow enuff u know..

i am sad.. really sad.. i scared i cant finish on time.. i dun wanna fail and retain.. i dun wanna waste my parent's money..really..

nobody can describe my feeling now.. really..i know some people are worse than me.. so i 'll hang on.. i wont complain again.. this is the last time..

alrite backk to work..=)

i miss u all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-07-23T09:57:00.000+08:00

ping! wend ! manda! stacy! janet! meiyun!

i miss u all man.. haha..=P

wend say she tried calling me on wed.. but i din pick up.. sorry wend.. think i'll call her today=)hehe..

sorry guys.. think i wont be able to meet up with u al so frequently le.. my project sux and i'm trying to make up for lost time.. cos i calculated how much time i would take, at my fastest speed.. and i would only complete my project on the 12th.. my god,.. despite being at my fastest speed.. i can only complete my project 2 days before submission.. and its without printing.. oh god...

but if meet for dinner, meet at near near place.. no prob=) hehe..

this is no life..

i guess everyone have been in this stage of minor depression.. its very disturbing.. cos u keep crying without any reason.. just thinking why ur life is so sadded.. rushing and rushing .. and still have to see tt sickening lecturer almost everyday.. the prssure tt the lecturer once gave me was unbearable.. and i hated him..until xiao ran talk to me then i realise.. i can do better without him..yes..

on fri,before we left.. i axctually wne tover to touch his model.. its just nice.. pretty.. neat.. he must be a xi xin de nan ren to do this..*blush=p i went to celebrate my colleague's birthday we went to k box and i was actually the youngest there.. ...

not fun.. but for the szake of my friend.. sigh..i din sleep, and i drank liquor.. mean hard liquor with tea or coke.....luckily i wasnt drunk..

haha.. my god... i need support..

jia you all my friends..=)

*jackie.. cherish the one u love..=)

i'm just too tired..

2006-07-21T15:23:00.000+08:00

i guess i'm too tired today. i slept at 4am the night b4..in the afternoon was quite devastating because of my quarrel with my mum and sis.. i broke down.. finally.. and cried.. there was no one i can turn to.. in the house.. outside..the comp hanged and my stuff all gone.. it was a cruel fat yet there wasntany backup.. sigh........but then continue to work on the old lao ya comp because i dun wanna rely on my sis.. i guess its better to be on my own..so worked the files back.. then then woke up at 9 plus to find out that i'm late for school..but nevertheless.. i still went to school..

ok .. i was in school and i saw the lecturers.. ok i got something to show them..but it wasnt my turn.. so i went to chat chat with xiao ren..i guess i need to have a good talk.. i told her what happened and cried..brokedown too.. haha... but she listened.. which i'm grateful for tt=)

then i went home and after dinner i went to sleep.. at 7pm and then my siblings they actually came into my room to wake me up at 12am with their chatting..kao..i cant sleep after tt.. so stayed up all the way to 6 this morning.. sian,,,

ok.. so bath, went to school.. i'm damned sleepy now..and i'm the only one in my class staying till this time.. tonight stil gotta celebrat william's birthday... sigh.. i'm broke too...

haha.. tt's all..=)

wednesday,, another day for rest.. but..

2006-07-19T10:07:00.000+08:00

today's wed again.. hehe.. and i'm gonna rush overnight again.. sigh..

i hope i can rush it out in time..

i'm going to jia you..

i wanna lose weight.. wahaha...

2006-07-17T22:22:00.000+08:00

i wanna lose weight!!!sigh.. i saw him how many times?? thrice!! can u imagine like everytime i go out of my studio i see him.. and everytime i come back i see him??everytime i have to force out the awkward smile and blush after he walk past me.. oh my god...

ok.. i've been very very very very stressed out the past few days.. until i dun even wanna blog.. dun even wanna see the comp.. so i went out to my cousin's house and had a great day with them=)love them to bits!!

ok.. so i ate and ate for 4 days!! ok.. so i felt i have enough rest le.. so now i'll jia you and start work again=).. no prob de.. i can do it de!!!

somehow feel tt nowadays my frens are not with me.. feel quite down sometimes.. really.. just wished tt my frens.. my sec school frens could be with me.. so tt i can lean on them..

really.. just sad ba.. tt everyone has got their own stuff to do .. therefore they cannot possibly always be there for me=(.. but i know de... for my sec school frens, we'll stay frens for more than 10 yrs de.. cos i trust them=)

ok.. i know somethings cannot be rushed.. but i really wish.. to have someone there for me.. to let me cry on his shoulder to share happiness and sad days with me.. hopefully i can find him=)and hope its him..

wahaha...

anyway.. thurs is the submission for t2 floor plans.. oh my god.. haven even finish cad for t2a... hoe to do work?? so i'm gonna burn midnight oil le.. wish me luck ba=)

2006-07-14T13:56:00.000+08:00

sigh...i think i suffering from overstressed..

why ah>> yesterday i had a good talk with xiaoran.. on the phone.. then realise that my stress came from 3 sides..

leh***-this lecturer haven been doing his part for this half a yr.. i dunno whether my project is on the right track.. just so scared tt my effort wil go down the drain..

this good fren of mine- she have not contacted me for more than 5 days. i think she's either enjoying her time too much to care for me or else something is happening in her house.. so i guess i 'll choose to believe the second one.. and hope she's fine..

family- i wanted to go to my autie's house to stay and play with her kids to destress.. but mym mum dun allow at all.. sigh...

thanx xiao ran for talking sense into me ast night..

i'm still having this stupid headache that had been there for almost a week.. scare it might be brain tumore or something..

i admit i've been acting weird.. sorry

hope tml will be better..

2006-07-11T18:29:00.000+08:00

yeah!! today he chatted with me again.. hmm.. no la.. i went over and saw him so say hi lo.. hehe.. then chatted a while.. feel so happy!!!! but today whole day i slack in school..sigh.. din do anything.. how ah??i also dunno..haha.. but i definitelt will produce the mass models de..

this lecturer call leh***.. really feel like slaaping him.. i think he dun care bout me at all.. he dun bother to look at me.. din bother to ask me how i'am doing.. i'm very scared to go and ask him cos scared he'llask me to change eveyrthing.. sigh...i dun care la.. i know i can do it without him too..=)

tml is my off day.. haha.. wanna go buy some material in the morning.. actually is wanna sing k de.. realy wanna go and vent frustration b4 i start my work..

meiyun haven contacted me for 5 days le.. i wonder how;s she.. i really think tt she dun care bout me.. i hope i'm not thinking too much.. but i have no one to depend on in school.. i cant possibly stick to jackie always.. cos he got chantal also..sigh.. and when i join shiqi they all i feel very guilty cos i always reject their offer to go lunch with them but they always pei me go home when i'm alone.. really thank them=)heee..

oh ya!! met up with stacy yesterday finally!! so so happy!!.. we met up after school and went to eat mos burger.. had a good good chat found out that actually both of our clicks in secondary school were shocked tt both of us still in contact with each other..hehe.. i mean.. why not??we stay so near each other..and we're close fren wat.. hehe..

next target.. is to meet up with manda!! and wendy..hehe

hmm.. luckily i got massing model for t2a le.. so now i only gotta mass for t2b.. but its just so hard.. cos i cant think straight now also..

*i hope me and my frens,family, and him stay this way.. just this way is good enuff for me=)

wat the...

2006-07-10T22:27:00.000+08:00

wat the....sigh.. today lehinign say thurs need to have 2 1:200 model.. t2a t2ab

sian..

i'm stressed la.. damn stresss.. head pain.. feel like puking...

i wanna sing k!!!!!!!

2006-07-07T19:26:00.000+08:00

haha.. i really wanna sing k la.. sigh.. tml cannot cos hann zai, wend, manda,keyun,xuelin they all not free neh.. sigh... nvm.. sure got chance de!!=)

hmm.. today only wnet to school in the morning.. then afternoon go home le.. i wanna fail my gems.. cos i 'm totally not interested in this gems.. and i did something very wrong to my grp members in gems.. i actually missed the presentation because i got migrane and took an mc... but my 2 other grp members din go too..in the end i also dunno wat happened..

ok... actually i wonder whether people got read or not.. haha.. maybe they dun care ba.. but thanx wendy!! haha.. cos she's my regular reader!!!

hmm.. really wanna go sing k la.. with one or two good close frens also can.. wanna sing my heart out be4 i go and do my t2b..=(

lately i'm disappointed with this fren of mine... dun wish to talk more.. hope this is temporary..

i love my mummy,daddy, and siblings..=)

haha.. wonder why i say this??cos today liping ask me oput of my siblings which one i dote on the most..then i say i dote on the elder brother.. haha.. actually i wont practice favoutism la.. haha..tt's why i say i love all of them=)

boring post.. hehe...recently love this song by gary cao ge.. gua mu xiang kan.. nice nice!!=)

ok.. i like him..

2006-07-06T20:14:00.000+08:00

haha.. yesterday whole day whole night never sleep.. damn sleepy.. working on my model.. stupid leh*** i tot it was the final model.. so do until very jia lat.. then in the end people din do anything also ok.. if i known earlier i wont do all le.. then still people like "woaaa.. u very hardworking leh.." kns.. if i not hardworking then who's gonna help u when work submission??sigh..

today finally saw him.. haha.. and is b4 i left..i like the way he smile when he see me.. haha.. managed to exchange a few phrase with him.. sometimes i wish i can be as slim as deon.. then i 'll definitely be brave enuff to confess.. and even if i fail i'll still have more confidence..sigh,..

i wish i can slim down..=(

ok.. if i still like him at the end of yr 3 then i will make a confession no matter wat.. haha.. fan zheng bi ye le if response not good wont be awkward.. wahaha

ok.. that's a deal..=)

i'm alone now..

2006-07-04T09:10:00.000+08:00

sigh.. alone in school now.. hope jackie they all come today.. if not i very lonely .. haha.. all i can say is. home is a very good but not so nice place to do model.

i prefer school when i have a big big table.. haha.. so i dun need to do on the floor...

finished only a part of the first level.. gotta buck up alredy.. i can sense danger actually.. haha..

hmm..took a cab to sschool today.. my god.. damn ex.. if i had known i take train.. cos it cost me 14 bucks and jam.. and the uncle actuall y dozed off!! my god..

sigh sigh sigh./....

they say sigh one time old 3 yrs.. i dunno.. haha.. maybe ba.. cos i got more and more white hair le.. haha.. like highlight..today gotta repay 54 bucks to jackie, and 59 to meiyun.. gosh.. i owe people so muchi also dunno..

ok.. back to work!!=)

sigh,,,i'm tired..

2006-07-03T15:08:00.000+08:00

i'm tired of looking after people le.. i wan people to look after me.. i just want someone to love me, care for me.. tt's all.. its just so simple but difficult at the same time..

i wanna be able to be late for 15 min without waiting for people.. i wanna be able to throw my head onto a person's shoulders when i'm sad or tired.. i wanna go out witht he person shop around freely.. sit down, eat...

yup.. so simple..

yupo btw.. sat fred's birthday was fun=) at least i enjoyed it.. haha..there was alot of food.. i mean.// alot...haha.. be4 tt i went to meiyun's house to do freds present.. haha.. luckily the present turned out fine=)

yeah!! i got my pocket money le!!! hahayesterday me and ping went to sing k with hann zai and ke yun..=) its was real fun.. hehe...

now gotta go back to my model le.. i must jia you!!!=)

sigh.. skipping gems again..

2006-06-30T13:05:00.000+08:00

sigh... meiyun and fred not here again today.. i very scared to go gems leh...really scared..
and fred's present still haven do yet..hoe ah??haha.. i also dunno..
tml going to fred's house to bbq t celebrate her birthday.. haha..i hope to relax b4 i go and do my work..

yeah!! weiling and olivia says my project is ok!!! finally..but still need to make some changes.. haha..i must jia you!!

anyway.. yesterday i met up with ping to pass her my acrylic paint.. haha.. my god.. i'm so blur.. i meeting her at bukit gombak but when the train come i hopped onto the train very hurriedly..my god.. its heading towards jurong east!! haha.. despite taking the train for so long le i dunno how to differentiate direction..
haha.. so finally met up with her at bg and we went to eat macs.. hehe.. and ping offered me tiramisu!! haha.. though no cocoa powder, but the cake tastes good~~~

haha..really hope to meet up with wend and manda..and stacy too!! i hope manda is doing fine=)

ok/.. now i shall go back to work..sigh...

haha.. laces!!!

2006-06-28T20:41:00.000+08:00

today ah.. haha.. went out to buy some laces for our business..early in the morning meet up with meiyun..she ah.. i really must say.. add up all the time i wait for her can equal to bout 72hrs.. haha..as usual.. supposed to meet her at bugis.. then later decided to wait for her at aljunied..haha.. waited for her for bout 30 min b4 she ask me whether wanna meet under her void deck..haha.. then still must wait for 20min after reach her void deck.. sigh.. haha..nvm..i guess i'm used to waiting for people le..
but one thing.. i cant tolerate waiting for my bvf de.. if i ever have one.. or at least not more than 15 min.. haha.. must respect each other.. of course i wont late also lo..

ok.. we met up and went for brakfast at bk.. haha... well the burger was nice=)then after tt we set off to look for fred's b-dae pressie.. found one tank top for her=)
then we shop shop for a while inside parco then decided to go icon.. i also wanna shopp// haha i wanna buy clothes actually but no money...=(

then we decided to go to woodlands to buy laces and all.. haha.. wheee!! in an hour's time we were on meiyun's car le.. haha..
ok.. bought bubble tea and shop shop around=) then we went intot he shop.. really like the uncle cos he's damn nice.. mettalic chains only 5 for $2 !!! best bargain man.. haha!! love the shop!!

i feel so frustrated witht he way my sister like talks back or like hold on to her own opinion..sorry ping.. i really hope tt one day u can come my house stay overnight.. or if i can go ur house also can=)haha...

i'm a bit stressed..

2006-06-27T20:26:00.000+08:00

haha.. today i only attend school for a while.. haha.. sigh..

dunno why but maybe i dun have the way to make her stay in school ba..

shudnt have shown the magazine anyway.. which made even me craving to go out and buy some material..oh my..i dui bu qi kenneth.. i promise i wont pon lesson again..

fred dun have the mood to work.. how ah?? then later at the end when submission nearing i'm gonna go crazy..will i?? i hope not..

i wanna try juggle betwwen work and studies.. painting shoes are my interest.. but i hope to earn money out of it..more money to save up then buy laptop.. haha... think will be long b4 i get 1.. haha

to my buddy.. i really hope u can jia you.. alot of people haven start also.. dun be affected by fred.. or even me.. i know u not interested in this course le.. but must still graduate ah..so must work ok??d.i.y gift for fred i'll handle..u just concentrate on the project first..b4 it gets even harder to start..all my fault la.. shudnt even have started to talk bout the lime flea market in the first place also.. like sudden make u all lost the whole interest in the project..my god...its really for ur own good..

maybe because my portion of time for studies is the portion of ur time for ur bf so i realli dunno how i can put myself into ur shoes..unless i have a boyfriend ba.. haha...but this is the nth time i'm saying all this.. but now i meant it as a reminder only.. and only to vent my guilt...no offence k??

i must hang on de.. sigh.. leh**** dun come to school better..kenneth is really a good lecturer..=)

*sorry jackie.., left u alone in school today.. but who ask u come late=P

wow.. there's just too much for me to say..

2006-06-27T01:07:00.000+08:00

over a period of 3 yrs..or rather almost 3 yrs..there are some frens lost, yet some frens gained.. shall i go thru one by one..

suping.. this is one constant friend from sec school times till now..haha. simply love her company..love the way we hang out so naturally.. like there can be no particular reason for us to hang out.. just when i need company or when she need company..hehe.. this is alredy the like.. hmm... 7 th yr we know each other.. another 3 yers and it'll be 10.. cool...haha..remember the times when we sing our hearts out in k box ..remember how i said hallo to her mummy whenever he r mummy call her when we are shopping.. haha.. rememebr the times i when i was her shield to cover her dates.. oops.. haha...but i dun mind it because i know i'll need her help someday!! haha,, keep it going!!!! i love this fren too much to let her go!! hehe..

wendy..this is one constant yet sometime no contact de.. but i can tell u, she still remember how we got to know each other.. i remember too!! how both of us got into a relationship almost the same time and broke off with our exes almost the same time.. how our friendship actually lasts after a major major coldwar in sec4.. and how we actually got close=)till today,our 5th yr in this frenship we're still close.. updating each other as often as possible..i just hope we just stay on as long as possible!!!!!!love ya fren=)

janet.. this fren.. haha.. if i'm not meeting up with her.. her goodnight messagess will haunt me.. haha.. she's really cool.. cos she never seem to need any support.. she's always indpendent..and she's alwys the most understanding person!!=)she listens quietly.. seldom making any comment.. her favourite phrases:'not bad!"haha.. though i only got to know this fren from sec 3.. i felt i know her for ages.. cos of her , i became a better person.. haha.. cos we care for people together=)never quarrel with her.. and i'll never want to because i know she wont win me one.. haha!! mwuah!!!

meiyun.. this fren ah.. first true fren i made in polytechnic.. i'm glad tt i actually found her cos she made me feel better from all the scheming people.. haha... this gal ah.. though she often not in school..but i dunno why still feel evry close close to her.. haha like we talk endlessly on our shopping trips..haha.. though most of the time i do the talking..hmm.. though i only knew her for 3 yrs.. i felt like i know her for more than tt.. she knows alot.. yet very little.. so we got quite alot to share... really hope we can keep this frenship going.. and she's the person i most wannted to graduate with!!! and maybe attend the dinner and dance together.. haha..jia you oh~~hugs and kisses!!!

jackie .. this guy fren.. haha.. i guess he's the kind of double faced person tt we see int he society nowadays..but difference is his 2 sides are not hypocracy and true self.. his is the bright and the dark side..haha.. know why?? cos his project is always dim dim.. sadist(abit).. but ebryday see him in school he's chirpy.. haha esp with auntie aka liping.. i guess they both built a very good rapport cos their conversation never fail to make us laugh..i enjoy his company on our way home from school.. like tt in the train then i not lonely .. haha..he's one guy tt i can tell evrything=). after his relationship with chantal.. we see him start to mature and become more gentleman..and the insensitive guy became a rather sensitive one now.. haha.keep it up buddy!! love this buddy lots!!

xiao ran.. i love this sister who's always taking care of me.. showing her concern for me.. reall appreciate alll her kindness and the way i can talk to her.. cry infront of her.. she can scold me.. and i guess she's the only one who can scold me in school.. i trust her.. and she's like my column in school.. haha.. when i tired i can lean on her..but i also wanna tell her.. i can be ur columns too!!!hugs!!

stacy.. this fren is warm hearted.. and nice to chat with.. i can chat with her for a whole day on the phone without any problems!!! thoughwe have not contacted each other for very very long.. but i still misses her and i know when the nexct time we meet up.. we'll be talking the whole day again=)miss ya!!!!and i know ur birthay is coming!!haha

manda, i really miss this fren alot alot.. but after we graduated from sec sch.. we seem to be drifting apart.. we used to be together with ping and wend.. u and wend were even the closest among us.. but now it becomes even so hard to meet up with u le..hope u know we all miss u and if u're hurt by tt somone ..we'll always be here=)miss ya..

all above are my true words .. haha.. thank u guys for being with me !!love you guys!!!

wo xi huan shang le yi ge ren..

2006-06-26T23:07:00.000+08:00

1.當你正在忙時，卻把手機開著，等著她/他的短信…… 　　　　你已經愛上她/他了

　2.如果你喜歡和她/他兩個人單獨漫步…… 　　　　你已經愛上她/他了

　3.當你和她/他在一起時，你會假裝不注意他，但是當她離/他開你的視線時，
你會急著尋找她/他…… 　　　　你已經愛上她了

4.當她/他受傷或生病時，你會很關心她，替她/他著急…… 　　　　你已經愛上他了

5.當她/他和別人要好時，你會感到吃不知其味…… 　　　　你已經愛上她了

6.當你看到她/他那甜美的笑時，你的嘴角會揚起一絲得意的笑…… 　　　　你已經愛上她/他了

7.當你看到這篇文章時，心裡想到某個人…… 　　　　那麼你肯定已經愛上她/他了

though not love..but its a crush..a big one...sigh,,,

holidays ending le..

2006-06-24T14:13:00.000+08:00

sigh...holidays ending..

ACTUALLY END LE ALSO GOOD..

i am eating and eating away at home..cannot eat anymore le..

MY GOD...I STIL HAVE LOTS OF THINGS HAVEN DO!!!!

yesterday migrane acted up..my god.. it hurts really terribly..

but no choice.. still gotta do m,y work..

tml i got work also..

sigh.. i;m broke..

here again ...

2006-06-19T22:07:00.000+08:00

i 'm here again..
used to use blogger..
but i switched to multiply halfway...........
which later i found out i cant say everything inside cos more and more ppl know bout my blog..
so.. i'm here again....=)